To have and to hold

Sometimes I don't know what to write about during these times of great waiting.

The reality is that we are WAITING, waiting to get our phone call, waiting to be matched, waiting to see our little boy, waiting to say ("Here he is"), to say the words "He is Ours", waiting to show our family and friends the newest member of our family, waiting to see him in  person and to hold his precious, tiny hand in ours and tell him how much it was worth all the waiting.  

Sometimes, I just want to cry out and scream the words, "I CANNOT WAIT".  I cannot wait to see you, I cannot wait to hold you, I cannot wait to bring you home.......

The answer to our wait is out of our control.  This has been a great lesson of patience and faith. 

I do believe that God's plan is unfolding and above all else,  He is in control and that allows my heart to rest when I truly acknowledge His presence in our adoption journey.  

I am reminded that I will see how truly great our God is when we look back on this time of waiting and celebrate how GREAT IS OUR GOD to work out every single detail at just the right time , according to His purpose and plan for our little boy and for us. 

In Ecceleiastes 3, the Bible says that there is a time for everything.  God makes all things beautiful in HIS TIME.    Why do I keep wasting hours in my day with worrying?     UGH.  I don't know!   

The Bible also says that He who began a good work in me will be faithful to complete it.    I guess I'm still a work in progress and I'll continue to look forward to God's work in me.  

So, as for now, we continue our wait.  What typically happens is, our agency who has special partnerships with specific orphanages in China, will release files of waiting children at any given time and when our social worker finds a child who they feel would be a good fit for our family, they will call us and send us his file.  

This phone call could come ANY TIME.  

We then have 24 hours to review his file and make a soft decision to accept his file and then 2 weeks after to get our doctor's involved, and then we make final decision on that specific child.  

For our child in China.....we are waiting for you , to have and to hold, forever .    We love you.

-mom & dad , Big brother and Big sister.  

To our family and friends:   Keep praying and following along.